My Joy-River, have you forgotten me? You know without you I am a sad wretched being in this silly life. It is You that gives me reason to breathe, it is You that holds my hand, guides and leads me to the fresher grass…right now I am stuck in not even dried but no grass. I need you most Father!
Once again I feel I am drowning, I want to sleep and not wake up ever, abandoned is how I feel. I know being with you is the best thing, take me or take this cup of failure, self pity, depression and every bad thing that i feel away my Jesus!
My father, I am your child and you made promises upon my life! Why do I feel forgotten, abandoned? You said you would give me hope and a great future. Am I giving up too soon? Come to me Father, Come to me….so that I may Pray and You will listen, come nearer, so I may search for you with all my heart and I may find you, to tell me what to do when I am stuck like now. Father, I need you…. Not tomorrow, today!
I love You Lord and my Faith in you is as strong, I only awoke feeling alone, a big failure, like I pray and you don’t hear me. Come upon me my Jesus, Hear me when I pray….i am nothing, you only can make me someone and only You can turn my silly life into something!.
I am sorry my Father that I get moments like these that put my faith to test. I am sorry my Father that I am focusing on my prayer requests and forgetting the many, many Blessing that You have spoken upon me, my family, my friends and everything dearest to me. I thank you my Lord endlessly for the answered and the unanswered prayers. Father, I am here and in your time, May all that I have Prayed and fasted for, with your mercy and grace come alive in my life today! Amen & Amen.
Pheww...i feel so much better already!
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